what if the pendant jim made for spock wasn’t delivered until after jim’s death. spock comes home after jim’s funeral to find a package at his door…
what if spock couldn’t open the pendant/play the message in it for months after jim’s death(s) because he couldn’t deal with that level of pain
what if he played it in the middle of the night and placed it on the pillow next to him so it was like jim was there
what if spock still had some of jim’s old shirts and he falls asleep with his face pressed into them so he can pretend that jim’s still there
what if spock got all of jim’s possessions and he goes through a box of jim’s old things and finds old holovids of their time on the enterprise
what if people actually suggest spock finish undergoing kolinahr because he is grieving that much but he refuses because he never wants to stop feeling about jim
what if spock sees his father remarry after his mother’s death and yells, actually yells, at his father because he can’t understand how you move on from a bondmate death. and that’s why spock left for romulus.