Futures Worth Remembering

(Source: asoftertrek)

(Source: asoftertrek)

spodiddly:

Gold and Blue Tango by ~SpoDiddly

Finally I draw what I’ve been wanting to draw for AGES now: Space Husbands and Tango :D

pavelchekovbodypillow:

bigmamag:

sincerelyemilie:

corpusinvictus:

itreallyisthelittlethings:

One of the things that surprised me first time I watched the reboot of Star Trek was the deep heartache I felt for Spock Prime. Seriously, the movie’s shinny and the new crew are crazy pretty, but every time the movie ends, my thoughts linger on Prime. (this is by far the most depressing graph I have ever created.)

• Years lived (so far): 157
• Years knowing Jim: 28
• Years trying to forget Jim: 3
• Years spent as Space Husbands: 20
• Years spent alone, carrying a holographic message of Jim on a pendant around his neck: 94

I am not crying…

Reblogging this because it arrived in my askbox in response to my question about what makes us so sad about Spock Prime.  I mentioned this in a roundabout way when I was writing but seeing it in a graph like that really drives it home that he really didn’t know Jim all that long during the course of his extremely long life.

I am actually crying.

Imagine outliving your soulmate, your t’hy’la, by so many years. Only knowing that you were so interwoven within each others lives for 20 years of the 28 years you knew each other, and having to live on long after his death because he wouldn’t want you to give up because he’s gone. Because he was the kind of individual who put others before him, and you couldn’t do that to him- even in death. Imagine trying to forget someone so special. Imagine carrying a projection of him to remind you of what is lost and what you must keep living for.

I can’t imagine a love any more profound and real as this. You cannot deny their love for each other, it is an impossible feat. You can merely ignore it.

These two men will forever be remembered as the first slash pairing- but for much more than asthetic qualities.

They will be remembered as Space Husbands and t’hy’la.

Fuck you, I’m all teary-eyed, omfg. GOD DAMN THEM FOR KILLING KIRK. JUST DAMN THEM.

hahahahahahahah god damnit spock prime feels
this is painful enough at face value but hold on a second while i make it 384765876436 times worse for you:
take a moment to consider spock prime’s obvious guilt over altering the timeline

for a long time when i thought about the ‘new timeline’ i thought of it in terms of an alternate timeline running alongside the original one (much like mirror!verse timelines because that’s what we’re accustomed to with trek) or harmless instances of time-travel where people go back and come forward and all that’s really changed is that some whales are missing and the day is saved
and this is probably because the new movie doesn’t throw it in your face that anything is fundamentally changed
the whole movie what you see is characters from the original series coming together despite their circumstances being drastically different and being awesome and achieving great things
so you come away with this wonderful feeling of rightness and you’re like ‘HELL YES OMG EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE, EVERYTHING IS FALLING INTO PLACE’ and why should we feel any different? i mean you can always go back and watch TOS and be like ‘ha yeah the reboot is pretty cool but TOS will always be star trek for me’ because that’s how we experience it

but the timeline is not alternate, it’s altered

jim kirk in the reboot movie is more ~edgy~ and ~modern~ and that’s really all i noticed at first but the more i watch the reboot the more it becomes apparent that his entire life has been different and he’s had different experiences and as such he will react to things differently/make different decisions/essentially be a completely different person
because honestly your experiences make you who you are 

and that’s all well and good (i like reboot kirk a lot let’s not even go there this post is long enough as is) until you realize the implications of it

spock went back in time and changed everything, changed jim, and now the jim kirk that he knew and loved enough about to carry in a pendant around his neck for 94 fucking years, literally does not exist and never will 

because of him

and he knows it 
the line where he says “because i failed” kils me every fucking time i just want to jump through the screen and be like NO COME HERE IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT OK and give him a hug

like that guy in the photo up there probably lives every day of his life with some small part of him acknowledging that his mother and his planet and all of his friends and jim are either dead and gone or completely different - because of nero, obviously, but nero wouldn’t have ever done any of that shit if spock hadn’t made that single, tiny, minuscule mistake that started it all

and that’s why i have spock prime feels

Since this post is making it’s rounds again anyway, (maybe because of this heart breaking post?) i just thought I’d reblog with all the heart rending comments attached.